February 2010
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Today, my lovely Momma Pippins said that if I ever...
“They all deserve to die. Tell you why, Mrs. Lovett, tell you why. Because in all...”
– Epiphany Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street
Lost a Friend and a Follower Today. Why?
I’ll tell yah why. It’s because I’m heart broken. This said friend and I were almost complete opposites; she uses her brain, and I use my heart. My heart’s broken, and she gets pissed off because I’m being “stupid”. Really? Is it fuckin’ stupid because someone you deeply care about had to make a choice between living on the streets or living with an...
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maleifus:
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I wish I had someone to make me feel special and wanted.
I know how yah feel. I had somebody like that once… You’ll find someone. He’s out there waiting for you whether he realizes it or not. Chin up! :)
I’ve had someone like that, too.
Nobody is waiting for me. I’m intolerable and insufferable and I just have way too many flaws. I actually hate...
@astrange
I am from Illinois. Not Chicago, but the boring parts of Illinois. Specifically, central Illinois in a little small town called Brimfield… I’m getting sleepy just thinking about it, lol!
There’s tons of snow out right now, but if there wasn’t, there would be miles and miles of corn. In this part, the people aren’t as friendly as they could be. Everyone kinda looks...
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formspring.me
And what’s YOUR favorite dinosaur? (:
Tyrannosaurus Rex!!! Even though they have stubby arms… :/
Ask me anything
http://www.formspring.me/Maleifus
You know you want to… ;)
pigwidgeon-:
I wish I had someone to make me feel special and wanted.
I know how yah feel. I had somebody like that once… You’ll find someone. He’s out there waiting for you whether he realizes it or not. Chin up! :)
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Heart in Her Eyes (First Conversation via...
Girl: Thanks for the add!
Boy: No, thank you for the add! So how are you?
Girl: I’m good how r u?
Boy: I am pretty good. Slightly sleep deprived but who isn’t? Ha! Just memorizing my lines for my acting class while comforting my poor heart broken friend.
Girl: Awww, I’m sorry what happened?? If u don’t mind me asking? And can i say??…..you are very handsome.
Boy:...
MTV has dropped "Music Television" from their... →
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swimthesea:
8 years late, says Jose
Wait, so it’s just MTV, and no “music television” part?
W/e
They would need to change MTV the name, not the little sentence. They play no music. Whatever MTV, whatever.
They should change it to “Moronic Trash”… Vision. It suits the program perfectly in my opinion.
You can't tell someone you love them and then...
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(via arianesantos)
The problem is that people aren’t supposed to love with their minds. They are supposed to love with their hearts.
I'm supposed to be posting stuff for my little...
but math is getting in the way… :(
@pigwidgeon
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maleifus:
Great answer!! Me wishes I had read through Harry Potter more thoroughly so I could have caught up on it, haha!! Thanks for answering my question!! :D If yah have any questions for me… well, I’m new here so idk if I have that “ask me anything” feature. But, you can ask me anything anyways if you wish! :)
You can have the feature you just have to set it up in your...
Musical Magic
Boy: I really want to thank you.
Girl: Ha ha! Ok! But what did I do?
Boy: Well, I use to sing every single day since I was a kid, but I stopped singing for a while… I hadn’t had a reason to. Now, I can’t stop singing!
Girl: Why’s that?
Boy: Because you’ve given me more than just a reason to sing, you’ve given me something I’ve never had before.
Girl: Aww, what would that be?
Boy: Someone to sing to.
@pigwidgeon
Great answer!! Me wishes I had read through Harry Potter more thoroughly so I could have caught up on it, haha!! Thanks for answering my question!! :D If yah have any questions for me… well, I’m new here so idk if I have that “ask me anything” feature. But, you can ask me anything anyways if you wish! :)
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“Attention restaurant customers: Testicles. That is all.”
– Peter Griffin
I’m quite proud of myself. Notice my last two boy/girl reblogs? Now go check some of the stuff I posted previously and see if you can put two and two together… :)
Too True
Girl: Aw babe, I wish I could give you a kiss!
Boy: I wish you could too my dearest. Waiting to see you, waiting to one day get that kiss is what keeps me motivated to get through the day.
Girl: Aw hun…
Boy: It’s too true darling. It keeps me breathing. Keeps me awake. Keeps me from giving up. Helps me cope with the day to day stresses. It keeps me loyal to you.
Girl: Aw baby!
Boy: True as the sun shining on your beautifully glowing face. True as the clouds in the sky. You keep me laughing in the darkest of times. You keep me calm when the world collapses all around me. The world around me is nothing, for you are my world.
Girl: You’re makin’ me cry…
Boy: You make me happier than I ever have been, or ever will be. You keep my heart. You keep me safe from my [inner] demons. You restored my faith in God.
Girl: Aw baby, you’re really makin’ me cry.
Impossible is Nothing
Boy: Darling, you set my soul on fire! Not only do you drive me crazy, but you inspire me to do things that were once impossible!
Girl: What’s the impossible?
Boy: The impossible doesn’t exist when I think of you. I could tell you what impossible was if I had never met you my dear.
Heart in Her Eyes (the fair warning)
For anybody who’s been keeping up with my little series here, I should warn you that things aren’t going to be as fluffy when I post the next few parts. In fact, it gets really really dark. What makes this even more sickening is that it’s all real. What I’ll be putting up here tomorrow will be nothing short of the truth… Goodnight all.
-Reptilia by The Strokes. Loved this song/band...
@watermelontears
Hahaha!! I’m glad to hear that!! ^_^
Reblog if you're totally awkward, but like that...
(via nots0rdinarygirl)
“Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm”
– Crash Test Dummies
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Facebook Chat (#2)
Me: We're told to stand up for what's right, but nobody does.
Travis: Which is why the human race is full of nothing but hypocrites.
Me: Exactly!
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Facebook Chat (#1)
Me: You neeeeed to play this flash game; it's a puzzle/story. the story part is quite excellent, especially for a flash game.
AND the directions are literally self explanatory
Emily: Didn't we just discuss our procrastination issues?
Me: lol, yes.
Emily: You're bringing Vodka to an AA meeting!
Me: no use fighting a loosing battle.
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Heart in Her Eyes (Excerpt #4)
Boy: Personally, I don't drink, and obviously I don't condemn others for drinking. But I gotta know: Why do you drink?
Girl: Because it's fun! [laughs]
Boy: I think the main reason why I don't drink is because I've seen what it could do. I have a cousin who was drinking and driving and he got in a wreck back in my grade school years. The family and I had him stay in our basement for the summer because it was colder than anywhere else, and he could barely move for the longest time. It was a shock when my brother and I were arguing about Pokemon upstairs and he managed to walk again to ask why we were being so loud. That of course when he was almost done recovering I guess. When he was in the shape he was a few days after the wreck, he could barely even talk, his lip was falling off his mouth, and it was just an awful sight. [pause] Another time, my cousin Jeremy was under six months old, my aunt was drinking and driving, got caught, and was sent to jail for six months; for those six months we had to raise Jeremy and his older sister Tiereny. That would have been five years ago. But I could remember how stressful it was. It was really scary for us to find out that Tiereny wasn't able to walk because she had SMA. On top of those experiences, the chemical imbalance within my brain would more than likely cause me to drink like a sailor if I started. I can't risk hurting anyone. I'd never forgive myself... Sorry that I spammed you with my stories [laughs]. I just wanted to let you know why I haven't sipped a lick of alcohol and probably never will. And, again, I don't condemn others for drinking. In fact, it's normal to drink.
Girl: It's ok. [laughs]
Boy: I'm surprised at how patient you are with me [laughs]! On average, a week is about the time someone who's remotely interested in me says, "Nope! Can't take this!"
Girl: [laughs] It's all good. I told you things don't normally bother me [laughs again]!
Boy: [laughs along] I believe it! It's just I'm use to feeling annoying because that's how I am, apparently... Hey, you're free next weekend, right?... Well you know, if you have plans then that's fine. I know how you can be busy and stuff, but I was just hoping if you weren't busy, and had nothing important to do, and if you could stand my awkwardness, I was just wondering if you wanted to spend the day together at my neck of the woods. If not, it's fine. I know how it is with this kinda stuff and how awesome you are and therefor could be doing so many funner things, like... Breathing but you know, just an idea... [looks away and scratches back of neck]
Girl: I don't know what I'm doing yet [giggles]. But I'll let you know.
Boy: [laughs] Ok. That's fine. I'm just thinking ahead because... Other than you, I don't have much to look forward to... [looks down] And it would be Valentine's Day weekend. I haven't had someone to celebrate Valentine's Day with in more than two or three years. Buuuut people have lives so you know... Ummm... I feel kinda self confidence drained today [looking forlorn]. It comes with the whole mental imbalanced thing... Like I even now feel like I've officially talked too much so I'm just gonna take a nap. Please be safe and such.
Girl: [leaves for party]
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Note: This is a real conversation and all conversations are not in chronological order. All depictions of people mentioned are in fact true. If you don't know what SMA is, I suggest you google it.
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What good is this conscience if it compels me to build a road from a dead end?
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A friend the other day, after hearing about my plight, told me I was free. I should be happy! No more responsibility! Move on! It’s not your problem anymore! You should be carefree… The truth is, I can’t stop caring. So he told me to reboot… I can’t find the button.
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The Company of Myself →
“This city is afraid of me. I have seen its true face. The streets are extended...”
– Watchmen Rorschach
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This morning, I woke up and after eating some oatmeal, I brushed my teeth as usual and before hopping into the shower, I grabbed a new bar of Zest soap from the “bathroom closet”. I prefer to shower naked, so I locked the bathroom door, put on my birthday suit, jumped into the shower, and turned on the hot water. I routinely wash my face first before anything so I proceeded to do so.
...
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Heart in Her Eyes (Excerpt #3)
Boy: I at times feel unworthy of your grace. Especially yesterday. I kinda felt crappy about myself yesterday. [looks away and scratches neck]
Girl: Why?
Boy: It's just how I think sometimes. I'm use to looking down at myself. But lately you've been making me feel on top of the world, but I always have my bad days... [he finds himself locked in her gaze via webcam] Dearest you're the most beautiful sight God could bless my eyes with!
Girl: Aw!
Boy: It's true. It really is. You're eyes still capture me, your face is sculpted with the greatest of care... [stops himself] Damn I could just spend all day talking about how beautiful you are.
Girl: [laughs] I told you I'm really not that beautiful.
Boy: Yes you are!! You're the paragon of Perfection!! I look into merely a picture of you and say to myself, "Self, how can such an extraordinary beauty possibly exist?". Then I remember that I've seen this beauty in person; beauty that caused me to float off into your spell cast by your wonderfully amazing eyes. I'm lost in your spell! I wouldn't be saying it if it wasn't true. I've been wanting to speak to you this way in person for the longest time. I believe I have the courage now, I just need the opportunity, at your majesty's leisure of course. I will never pressure you just to see me. It's not right. [pause] Your majesty meaning you, naturally. [laughs nervously]
Girl: [laughs after him] Yeah, let's give it a few more weeks.
Boy: As you wish dearest! In fact, when the time is right, you should ask me when you want to see me. Why not me? Well I'll just be too anxious all the time like a kid in a candy store! I'll be hyperventilating and shaking impatiently, buuuuuuuuut that's where you with your better judgment comes in and says, "No. Not yet". Yah? [another pause] No matter how much I beg, or plead, or moan and groan, and no matter how many times or ways I describe how truly amazing you are in every way, you call the shot.
Girl: [laughs] Ok!
Boy: Because it's about YOU! Yes, YOU! When YOU're ready! YOU cannot care how much I'm spellbound to YOU, YOU decide!!... But when that time comes, we'll be goin' to my neck of the woods; YOU'll thank me for it if I'm even lucky enough to see YOU in person once again (after all, it's YOUr call).
Girl: [laughs] Yeah.
Boy: No matter what happens though, no matter what you decide, I will agree to it and I will still be there for you even if it's not the sort of way I'd wish it to be. But it is important to note that nobody will treat you better then I. When most "nice guys" would leave in sight of things less ideal, I stay. When others fear to swim to those whom they care about so they don't drown, I hop in without hesitation. I don't even look at how deep the water is or whether or not there are sharks about! When one should be thinking about themselves, I think about everyone else. When most would just watch you cry your eyes out, I would offer my shoulder and an open ear. When others provide for themselves, I provide for the ones I love and expect nothing in return. When others would watch a bullet steal a life, I'd take that bullet, even if I had never met that person. Only God and Jesus can forgive more times than I, and no matter what kind of crap is thrown at me, I'd still stand in the middle of a hurricane just to make you smile. [awkward pause; looks away] It's just how I am. [even more of a pause] And for the person who I give my heart to and if it's accepted, maaaaaan oh man!!! You can multiply that by infinity and it still wouldn't match my capabilities. [smiles big]
Girl: [smiles big too and laughs]
Boy: [confidently] So missy, you know how most chicks talk about that "dream guy"? Not physically speaking but pretty much everything else? I hate to boast, buuuuuut that'd be me. But shhhhhh! Please! Don't tell anybody! [winks] No one is supposed to know!
Girl: [laughs] Ok, my lips are sealed.
Boy: Goooooood! Because, [looks around] between you and me, I don't really wanna give out my heart to anyone else. And if other women found out who I really am, I wouldn't get a moment to rest! In fact, at this point, if I had a choice between having any woman I wanted AND fulfill my dream of being a famous Actor and such, I wouldn't take it. I haven't felt this happy before. [pauses] But you know, that's just how I feel.
Girl: [laughs] Aw!
Boy: And my dear, I have no reason to lie to you. "I'm miles from where you are, I'd lay down on the cold ground. I pray that somethin' picks me up and sets me down in your warm arms".
Girl: [cheeks turning red]
Boy: In all actuality, I also "want to start a flame in your heart" just for me. Now, it seems, "in my life I have but one desire, and that one is you; no other could do. I've lost all ambition. The world isn't the same; I just want to be the one you love". But only with your admission [winks].
Girl: [turns red and her smile grows]
Boy: "Of all God's miracles large and small, the most miraculous one of all is the one I thought could never be... God has" introduced you to me, and showed me what it feels like to truely love. With this feeling I could die happy, but I wouldn't want to.
Girl: [concerned look] Yeah babe. I don't want you to either.
Boy: [playing it off, laughs] I'd hope so! I'm glad you caught on the hypothetical aspect of that scenario.
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Note: There's an unlikely chance I'll be embarrassed when I post this one. Maybe... This is what I do in fact sound like when I when I fall deeply in "love" with someone. These words come from what I feel, and what I felt was real. I meant every single word. If you happen to recognize a song lyric, it won't be coincidence. Often times when I cannot fully express something in words, I will relate to something remotely close if it's from a certain song. I quote it. Still note, however, that the feelings I've felt are quite original, even if expressed through some song lyrics.
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Heart in Her Eyes (Excerpt #2)
Girl: I'm not really that beautiful [laughs].
Boy: No, you really are drop dead gorgeous!! Seriously! You drive me crazy!
Girl: Oh yeah? I really drive you crazy?
Boy: Of course my dear! No doubt about it! All I'm able to see is you!
Girl: Aw! Wow!
Boy: It's true! True as my heart only beating for you!
Girl: Aw babe! God, you're makin' me blush!
Boy: Darling, you set my soul on fire! Not only do you drive me crazy, but you inspire me to do things that were once impossible!
Girl: What's the impossible?
Boy: The impossible doesn't exist when I think of you. I could tell you what impossible was if I had never met you my dear.
Girl: Aw! [laughs] My face is all red!
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Note: I should be embarrassed when I put this up, but (again) I won't be. If I had released the original context of this dialogue, however, I would have reason to be embarrassed simply because it wasn't appropriate for potential readers. The nature of the conversation was still wholesome at heart. Again, everything I had said here was based upon what I've felt. It was all real... Still in no particular order. More to come...
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Heart in Her Eyes (Excerpt #1)
Boy: Release me from this prison of the mind and body. Thankfully my heart rests safe in your eyes.
Girl: Yeah, I know. I'm sorry. I wish I could move on and give myself to you fully.
Boy: I understand my dear. If I could I would put you back together again even if it took me till my dying day. I feel for you darling.
Girl: I know hun. I just want over him.
Boy: I want you to be too my dear. As long as you want to, as long as you desire to move on, the process will be that much quicker. Your efforts will be greatly rewarded. I haven't and won't think of any other [woman] but you, even when one day you can say your mine, my loyalty will be unphased.
Girl: Aw hun!
Boy: My dear it's more true than the sky is blue. The truth of the matter is I Love You.
Girl: Aw babe, I Love You too!
Boy: I know my dear, I know. Just know I'll do whatever it takes to make you happy.
Girl: I know you would.
Boy: Even if it means if I have to end up giving up the person who's made me happier than anyone has ever been able to in the entire world. As long as it'd make you happy, I'd even let you go if you so wished it to be. I don't think about this possibility; I only think about how happy I can make you.
Girl: Yeah, you do make me happy so far.
Boy: Understand also that I would never displease you due to selfish desires. I'm the dream guy, remember? I don't do that! [laughs] Everything I do is for you, always will if you wish it.
Girl: Aw babe, I wish I could give you a kiss!
Boy: I wish you could too my dearest. Waiting to see you, waiting to one day get that kiss is what keeps me motivated to get through the day.
Girl: Aw hun...
Boy: It's too true darling. It keeps me breathing. Keeps me awake. Keeps me from giving up. Helps me cope with the day to day stresses. It keeps me loyal to you.
Girl: Aw baby!
Boy: True as the sun shining on your beautifully glowing face. True as the clouds in the sky. You keep me laughing in the darkest of times. You keep me calm when the world collapses all around me. The world around me is nothing, for you are my world.
Girl: You're makin' me cry...
Boy: You make me happier than I ever have been, or ever will be. You keep my heart. You keep me safe from my [inner] demons. You restored my faith in God.
Girl: Aw baby, you're really makin' me cry.
Boy: You have shown me what beauty really is! You've given me the perspective to see the beauty in the collapsing world around me. You keep me warm in the winter storm. You've indirectly helped repair a bridge between me and my family. You give me the insight to find my way to paradise.
Girl: Babe I'm so happy I can do that for you!
Boy: I am too, because no one else could. For all this, and more, I serve you. Serving you also gives me a joy I have never known.
Girl: [laughs] Aw babe!
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Note: I should be embarrassed when I put this up, but I won't be. It's strange. This is in fact a real conversation I had with her. These words come from what I feel, and what I felt was real. I meant every single word. They aren't sweet nothings. Sweet nothings come from the mind. What I have said comes from my heart and my soul. These excerpts will not be in any particular order, and there will be more to come. They will be just as real as this one is.
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“Violence, in its purest form, is a demon, and therefor Domestic violence is a...”
– Tommy Rosecrans
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“All Russia is our orchard. It is a great and beautiful land, and there are many...”
– Cherry Orchard Trofimov
-Snow Patrol Set Fire To The Third Bar (featuring...
“I just don’t know if I wanna do it anymore - get close to somebody so they can...”
– One Tree Hill (via runawaytrain) (via velvetlipstik)
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2010 Superbowl: Saint's Go Marching In. Rated PG...
So I was actually watching the Superbowl this year, not just for the commercials, and what kept me from just skipping the plays was something I saw on tumblr. Specifically, an article on “If Hollywood directed the Superbowl” or something like that. With that in mind, I did picture it like a movie; a good movie, not a typical Hollywood movie…
The whole time I was drawn in by the...
“Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim...”
– V for Vendetta
