Boy: I at times feel unworthy of your grace. Especially yesterday. I kinda felt crappy about myself yesterday. [looks away and scratches neck]
Girl: Why?
Boy: It's just how I think sometimes. I'm use to looking down at myself. But lately you've been making me feel on top of the world, but I always have my bad days... [he finds himself locked in her gaze via webcam] Dearest you're the most beautiful sight God could bless my eyes with!
Girl: Aw!
Boy: It's true. It really is. You're eyes still capture me, your face is sculpted with the greatest of care... [stops himself] Damn I could just spend all day talking about how beautiful you are.
Girl: [laughs] I told you I'm really not that beautiful.
Boy: Yes you are!! You're the paragon of Perfection!! I look into merely a picture of you and say to myself, "Self, how can such an extraordinary beauty possibly exist?". Then I remember that I've seen this beauty in person; beauty that caused me to float off into your spell cast by your wonderfully amazing eyes. I'm lost in your spell! I wouldn't be saying it if it wasn't true. I've been wanting to speak to you this way in person for the longest time. I believe I have the courage now, I just need the opportunity, at your majesty's leisure of course. I will never pressure you just to see me. It's not right. [pause] Your majesty meaning you, naturally. [laughs nervously]
Girl: [laughs after him] Yeah, let's give it a few more weeks.
Boy: As you wish dearest! In fact, when the time is right, you should ask me when you want to see me. Why not me? Well I'll just be too anxious all the time like a kid in a candy store! I'll be hyperventilating and shaking impatiently, buuuuuuuuut that's where you with your better judgment comes in and says, "No. Not yet". Yah? [another pause] No matter how much I beg, or plead, or moan and groan, and no matter how many times or ways I describe how truly amazing you are in every way, you call the shot.
Girl: [laughs] Ok!
Boy: Because it's about YOU! Yes, YOU! When YOU're ready! YOU cannot care how much I'm spellbound to YOU, YOU decide!!... But when that time comes, we'll be goin' to my neck of the woods; YOU'll thank me for it if I'm even lucky enough to see YOU in person once again (after all, it's YOUr call).
Girl: [laughs] Yeah.
Boy: No matter what happens though, no matter what you decide, I will agree to it and I will still be there for you even if it's not the sort of way I'd wish it to be. But it is important to note that nobody will treat you better then I. When most "nice guys" would leave in sight of things less ideal, I stay. When others fear to swim to those whom they care about so they don't drown, I hop in without hesitation. I don't even look at how deep the water is or whether or not there are sharks about! When one should be thinking about themselves, I think about everyone else. When most would just watch you cry your eyes out, I would offer my shoulder and an open ear. When others provide for themselves, I provide for the ones I love and expect nothing in return. When others would watch a bullet steal a life, I'd take that bullet, even if I had never met that person. Only God and Jesus can forgive more times than I, and no matter what kind of crap is thrown at me, I'd still stand in the middle of a hurricane just to make you smile. [awkward pause; looks away] It's just how I am. [even more of a pause] And for the person who I give my heart to and if it's accepted, maaaaaan oh man!!! You can multiply that by infinity and it still wouldn't match my capabilities. [smiles big]
Girl: [smiles big too and laughs]
Boy: [confidently] So missy, you know how most chicks talk about that "dream guy"? Not physically speaking but pretty much everything else? I hate to boast, buuuuuut that'd be me. But shhhhhh! Please! Don't tell anybody! [winks] No one is supposed to know!
Girl: [laughs] Ok, my lips are sealed.
Boy: Goooooood! Because, [looks around] between you and me, I don't really wanna give out my heart to anyone else. And if other women found out who I really am, I wouldn't get a moment to rest! In fact, at this point, if I had a choice between having any woman I wanted AND fulfill my dream of being a famous Actor and such, I wouldn't take it. I haven't felt this happy before. [pauses] But you know, that's just how I feel.
Girl: [laughs] Aw!
Boy: And my dear, I have no reason to lie to you. "I'm miles from where you are, I'd lay down on the cold ground. I pray that somethin' picks me up and sets me down in your warm arms".
Girl: [cheeks turning red]
Boy: In all actuality, I also "want to start a flame in your heart" just for me. Now, it seems, "in my life I have but one desire, and that one is you; no other could do. I've lost all ambition. The world isn't the same; I just want to be the one you love". But only with your admission [winks].
Girl: [turns red and her smile grows]
Boy: "Of all God's miracles large and small, the most miraculous one of all is the one I thought could never be... God has" introduced you to me, and showed me what it feels like to truely love. With this feeling I could die happy, but I wouldn't want to.
Girl: [concerned look] Yeah babe. I don't want you to either.
Boy: [playing it off, laughs] I'd hope so! I'm glad you caught on the hypothetical aspect of that scenario.
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Note: There's an unlikely chance I'll be embarrassed when I post this one. Maybe... This is what I do in fact sound like when I when I fall deeply in "love" with someone. These words come from what I feel, and what I felt was real. I meant every single word. If you happen to recognize a song lyric, it won't be coincidence. Often times when I cannot fully express something in words, I will relate to something remotely close if it's from a certain song. I quote it. Still note, however, that the feelings I've felt are quite original, even if expressed through some song lyrics.
